a blog by Liz Johnston… just a 20-something PR girl trying to find her way

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Five-Feet to Fear

As a 20-something aspiring PR girl, I am not only in the process of finding my perfect career path – which, by the way is harder than it sounds – but I am also trying to discover the who I am a part from the what I do. Throughout my life I have been told, in the nicest way possible, that I am energetic, loud and a bit in your face. So this past year I have been working on being happy alone – content with the silence of my being.

Again, it’s not so easy – I am a talker, but I’ve slowly been discovering ways in which I can silently shine.

Here, I would like to reference a blog post from a fellow Duck on PRos in Training, which hits on the subject of the person behind the career – the who you are apart from the what you do. Yes, the two relate, but the key is to know that within every 20-something PR girl, the girl must shine through. And I know it’s cheesy, but sometimes the cheese speaks the truth, confidence is the key. Kelli nailed it on the head, the way in which you carry yourself and view yourself completely effects the people and atmosphere around you. When you are confident, people around you will view you differently. They will view you as a professional and maybe even an adult…but I’m not sure I’m ready for that.

I have been loving my senior year at the University of Oregon – and no, not for the parties and nights at the campus bars. (Well, at least not entirely.) I love the feeling I get as I walk out of my classrooms. I think to myself, “I’m ready. I can do this!”

But, that feeling only lasts a few steps. I like to call this the “five-feet to fear” theory. As I exit my classrooms and hit the five-foot radius around the door, fear sets in and  anxiety takes hold. All thoughts of “I’m ready. I can do this!” fly out of my head and are immediately replaced with “I still feel like I’m 18 and I’m not ready to be a full-on ADULT.” Yes, I am 22, I live on my own, I pay my own bills, and yet I still don’t consider myself an adult, and I think  quite a few of my peers would say the same thing. In fact, I think that a lot of students, most of them seniors facing the inevitability of graduation, would agree with my “five-feet to fear” theory. Or, I just hope that I’m not the only student facing this anxiety about the rest of my life.

That is really how I see it. When you get to the core of the fear, anxiety and uncertainty it is that fact that after graduation the rest of my life begins. And in writing those words I must let out a sigh – the rest of my life begins. Students everywhere, if you have yet to think about this, really let it sink in.

The kicker: I really am ready.